I'm pretty sure I've blogged about this before but the topic just doesn't seem to go away. When I was younger I let my fears control me and keep me from doing things that I wanted to do... or that would help others. About 3 years ago I really came to the understanding that God didn't want me to be controlled by this fear and I started facing fears as they came to me. The biggest thing at the time was leading worship, singing in front of people, etc. I really did learn to trust God to use me and that has become something that I'm fairly comfortable with. Well, we all know what happens when we get comfortable...
Last night a friend asked me to speak on camera to promote something for the young adults ministry. Ahhhhhhh! Ok, I know. I sing in front of people... I'm on stage all the time.... but this to me is worse than singing in front of thousands (well, I imagine at least... I never have) I despise talking on camera. Despise! BUT... I did it, not because I wanted to but because I want to be a stronger better me who is not held back by my fears. It makes me a little sick to my stomach to watch but I'll share it with you :o)
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